Just as I was slowly moving on. I get a Text message from Lover boy. "So are we getting back together?" I thought that I would never hear Lover boy say that. I idmediatly textedd back saying "What? I thought you didn't want to date me." I was so nervous I didn't know what to do, should I say yes or should I say no? Then when he finally texted me it said "Your the right girl for me." Before I could say anything I remember that he told me that he had a girlfriend. So i texted back "But I thought that you had a girlfriend?" "Not anymore the way she treated me made me realize how good you were." Lover boy texted me back. This would be the second time that he told me that. What was his problem? He needed to make up his mind. "..You've said all of this before and then you changed you mind and moved on..." At this point I was in a daze. This is what I dreamed of for so long. My heart was pounding so hard. And then I was pulled back into realitly "Bitch do you want to go out with me or not?" Thats what lover boy texted me. I texting back "Bitch? Not if your going to treat me that way." I couldn't believe what I was reading. He was never like this with me, never. And then finally Lover boy texted me back saying "This is Lover boy's friend, I'm just playing with his phone because his fat ass is eating taco bell." All of this was a joke. All of my hopes were up and now they are crushed. The real Lover boy texted me back saying sorry. I told him it was fine and that I didn't care. When I really did care and that it wasn't fine. I've moved on just a little and now I took two steps back, and I've not moved on at all.

Why do these things always happen to me?

The night we met. I will never forget. It was at a football game. It was my school against his, and it was at his school. My bestfriend "AMD" at the time was dating "Wifebeater" who used to go to "Lover boys" school. They knew each other. So "Lover boy" came over and he was standing right next me to, and he was talking to "Wifebeater". And I leaned over to my other friend that was with us, "Little one" and I told her that I thought he was cute and she smiled at me and agreeed. And then thats when "Lover boy" turned to me and started talking about gum. Yes really gum. Not the most romantic or cute thing to talk about but I didn't care. All I cared about was that I was talking to him. He eventually left to go talk to some other people. I really wanted to talk to him again. so me and "Little one" were trying to figure out how to talk to him with out going up to him and look pathetic. So we decided that me and her would walk by and I would accidently bump into him. And we would talk from there. I know such a lame way to talk to the guy but I didn't want  to go up and talk to him. But before I could bump into him he vanished. And I was very noticable looking for him. And thats when my bestfriend "AMD" called me over and said "Who are you looking for?" I told her about my plan to talk to Lover boy. She then left to talk to "Wifebeater" and a minute later "Wifebeater" called over "Lover boy". I died just then and there because I knew that "AMD" told "Wifebeater" about my plan and how I like him. The next thing I know "Lover boy" is walking over towards me with a pen. He asked for my number. And I even got to write it on his hand ! I always wanted to do that.

When we were dating I went to all of his schools varsity football games and all of his football games. He was on JV. I was really close with his family and his friends. He would always hold the car door open for me. And instead of sitting in the front of the car, He sat next to me in the back holding me hand. He was always such a gentlemen. No other guys would do that for me. He would pay everything for me even though I told him that I didnt want him to because I felt bad. But he did anyway.

All we ever did was kiss. He was very religous and wanted to wait till he was married to have sex. He went to church every week. He brought me once. I did not know what was going on the whole time because I do not ggo to church and I am not chatholic I am protestant. So I could not do certain things like eat the bread. I was confused the whole time but I was happy to be there with him. All I wanted was to be there with him. I didn't even care if it was boring church or the freezing cold watching him play football.

The reason we broke up? Lover boy was not very experianced in the relatioship catogory, going to an all boys chritian military school, it pretty hard to find a girl. Anyway's he wanted a break, we were spending to much time together. He wanted a Break, but he said break up. He never wanted to break up, just a break. Atleast thats what told me.

Now it is too late........I will never get my Lover boy back